Tell the truth !!!

Yeah i like you ... but not gonna say it out ... cuz 1st of all .. i dun wanna hurt you .. 2nd i seriously need to make sure my feeling ... 3rd ... one of my fd also feeling the same for you ... well.. is complicated ... >.<"

"your my angel"

well since i go back to my country for sure i be missing you ... "alot" so i guess i write this song oh .... it still havent finished yet but .. i gonna post some part of it here ....

Intro: you so far away from my .. and i try to be ... rush back to you ... when i close my eyes i can see you in my mind all my dream every night.. do you know how much i miss you each day by day ... and that feeling killing me inside ... oh !! plz say again for me plz tell me how you miss me ...
CHORUS: do you know gal? I never wanna leave you .. Do you know gal? and i wanna be your... do you know gal? your my everything .... I need you baby ... Never let ... Never let you go ... your my angel... Never let never let you go.... and I don't know how to live without you now ....

What shall i do ??

Still hope for it .. or give up ... i dun know what to do >.<"

My fd asked me .....

What kind of gf you want ??

well that thing is ... haha .. of course this 3 facts

1. honesty

2.understanding

3.love

my girl gotta be stable, clam ,gotta be CUTE!!! i dun like hot and sexy girls also pretty .. >.<" oh!! oh !! yeah gotta be a bit romantic .. just a little bit .. and well sweet talking of course !! and want the one who care about me .. well i guess is not much.. =)

Where all these things gone??

2 and 1/2 years of hoping to be with you ... 3 months and 1 week together with you and 6 months in long distance relationship , happy giving kisses through the phone...so now is gonna end easily ??
I still remember is was on 3 Oct 2009, i got answer back from you .. through Google Talk because that time you was in Singapore...that night i was damn happy till i cant sleep and looking at our chat history and reading it again and again ... you reached back to YGN on 6 Oct... since from that day i keep on calling you and talk with you starting from 11 pm till 3/4 in the morning ... sometime i didn't even sleep and straight away go to my class.... well of course sleep in the class !!!! but "sometime" only ..days passed by and reached to 28 Oct, the state show night ... you were living in my chest happily.. First time kissing your cheek on that day... =) "very happy" Month turned to November...First time you called me to come to your Mom office around 4 pm ... i did come and see you almost every day...Ground floor of your mom office building, the bakery,the place where we used to sit and talk till you go back .. i guess our images still there ...Days passed by happy being together...it was on Sat day, 19 Nov around 2 am.. was talking on the phone with you and i said " What kind of flower you like ?? " you answered " orchid, purple color " as soon as you told me that you want that flower i just simply plucked from my Grand mom orchid garden and come and i give you ... "First time driving in my life alone around 2 in the morning" take alot of risk seeking out from my hourse .. " push my car out of the compound if start grand parents wil notice and cant make it to come to you " and tomorrow morning you said thanks to me cuz you saw the flower in your mail box ... =) still hanging out with you every evening at your mom office building... since your mom office is top floor of the shopping center...days and night keep on changing but for us till everything same.. still talking on the ph every night and my kisses still landing on your cheek.. Come to my sweet 16 birthday party...i invited you to come my birthday party at my house... you did come for me... =) so i let you met with all my cousins, aunties and uncles even with my grand parents.. they all said you look better compare my first gf.. =D around 7 30 pm, you give me a wallet that i using rite now as my birthday present with you pictures in it .. and the very first kiss in my life .....starting from 25 Dec our Medical school started to open and you busy with your studies and i also busy with my scholarship interview and test ...So we didn't get chance to talk on the ph and meet outside like we used to be .... and turned to 30 Dec ... last day in my country ...we didn't sleep and talk on the line till 2 am .. and around 2 am i finished writing a letter for you so i came to your house and gave you a letter and 8 real red rose with 1 fake red rose ... i still remember what i said to you " I will love you till the last rose die" and you give me a letter back with teddy bear key chain and hugged me from my back... I can feel you tears coming down.... I try my best not to let go of my tears turned around to you and kissed you ... after kissing i went back to my house ... on the way back my tears started to fall non stop till reached home ...and my grand mom come and comforted me....but yesterday .. 24 July ... where all those tears, rose, orchid, kisses gone ??

I guess...

I the one who thinking so much and hoping so much ... actually you not "Showing sign at all .. just my.." hmm... but but ... words dun come out .. wana show you never look at also ... always looking away while talking .. lol ... =) well.. i guess we cant be more than fd .. =( our fate is meant to be like this i guess .. but hope i can change it also ..but bro say .. I can but I don't dare .. afraid that i cant make it .... hmmm.. =( IF I SAY IT OUT LOUD WILL YOU ??

Tough day...

Meeting from 8 to 12 ... tired ... I was hoping to "see you" but .. you don't come .. but the "other one" who i don't expect come ... from 8 to 12 suffering from hunger .. and don't get chance to eat also...finished meet .. glad i saw my bro .. and make me kinda happy .. ^ ^ thanks to that buddy .. =) but hmm... still incomplete .. =(